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Um new lj is viciousdollface go add me now
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[28 Sep 2003|03:54pm] |
mmmmm I need a new lj
who has a code for me??
hmm?
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[26 Sep 2003|03:19pm] |
I'm getting ready to go to Mark's viewing. Fuck suicide. Don't any of you ever fucking do it. Funeral is tomorrow.
R.I.P mark.
I remember 4am waffle house trips. I remember you were our favorite waffle house employee and we were your favorite creatures of the night.
I wish you hadn't done it.
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[23 Sep 2003|03:36pm] |
so, I still have no job. I got turned down everywhere I applied. Suprise suprise.
Livejournal is being a piece of shit.
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[12 Sep 2003|09:56pm] |
comment and add me and I'll add you back.
Muah
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[13 Aug 2003|11:19pm] |
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Damn everyone who has a car and license. I would be getting my license in like 4 months if the stupid fucks hadn't suspended it. I'm so pissed. I mean, everyone in Troy hates me with a passion or are just fucks, besides a few people who are generally too busy to hang out with me. So all of my friends live out of town and I can never go see anyone b/c I don't have a mother fucking car and I don't have anyone who is willing to drive me anywhere and no one fucking comes to visit me. I mean I don't think it's that they don't want to, it's that they don't want to hang out with me bad enough to drive here, or they don't have the money for gas and shit. It's so shitty I want to drive so fucking bad. Why in the god damn fuck do they suspend licenses for everything here. I didn't get in any trouble that had anything to do with driving or any kind of automobile, it was drug abuse charges, my first one by the way and they fuckin took my license. What dicks. oh god damn. It makes me so mad, I just want to fucking hang out with people.
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[12 Aug 2003|05:43pm] |
We never met, you and I
We were always inside, we were somewhere inside
one another. And I'll live without you love,
but what good is one glove, without the other?
You only ask about my leaving,
well honey I had no choice, so
I call and (when you hear that heavy breathing)
for that sound of your voice.
But you sit there silent, folded arms
And look down as I walk by
Though my face has changed, you know it's me
You know by the stillness in my eyes.
Come and whisper in my ear, "you're very pretty,d ear" and
"it'll be alright." You're lying!
But I don't mind tonight.
So I wander and I wander
Your absence beating inside my chest
I try but I can't remember
The color of your eyes- just the shape of your dress.
And through a garden overgrown
Oh, it's a long walk home.
I said I'd not come back, well I'm coming back-
and you'd better be alone.
You sit there silent, folded arms
As you smile, as i walk by
My face has shamed, But you know it's me, YOU KNOW ITS ME!
Come and whisper in my ear,
"it'll be alright." "it'll be alright."
"it'll be alright." "it'll be alright."
"it'll be alright." "it'll be alright."
No!NO!!
compliments of James-![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) j_bongey
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| You guys rock my socks.. |
[12 Aug 2003|02:09pm] |
So yeah, I was thinking last nite/morning before I fell asleep and Brent rocks my socks, b/c well he's gorgeous and he talks to me like everynite and has yet to become thoroughly irritated with me and he's so fucking smart. I love it. And he loves debating, and so do I so it's just bad ass. He's one of the first people I've been able to talk to for hours on end and not get sick of it in a long ass time. There's no one else like him. He's one of those people that make you realize that as shitty as the world is, everyone's not completely fucked up.
And Jason holydischarge rocks my socks b/c I ramble on and on and on to him and he has yet to block me or tell what a total fucking pyscho path I am, he did tell me today that I is mad crazy though. haha. Who else would put up with my 5 in the morning half asleep crazy ass randomness though? Plus Def Leper is fucking awesome and I better get my cd soon ;)
And Miss Ashley St. Ives gogo_hellkitten rocks my socks b/c she has overcome so much in her life and is still overcoming so much simply b/c society is fucked and refuses to look past superficial bullshit to see what a great person she truely is. She is so strong and she is so unique. And she's just so fucking fun. And she has a bad ass video collection.
And Briandezzysmt and Kevin from My Wings Denied rock my socks b/c brian is the only edge kid I have ever met who isn't at my fucking throat all the time b/c I'm not edge and Kevin is such an emo kid and a half you just wanna hug him and be like, cheer up emo kid.
And Jess rocks my fucking socks b/c I've known her for sooo fucking long and she's such a caring person, I just wish she would care a little bit more about herself. Stop bottling shit up. It's not healthy. But I love that girl to death. yeah we fight. Of course we fucking fight we've known eachother since we were 2 fucking years old. But when shit gets serious, we'll always be friends.
Oh and of course Amber and Brandon rock my fucking socks, brandon is a hippy and a half, but gotta love him. We have so much fun together, just chillin in the basement, smokin out and talking. It's the best atmosphere I've experienced in a long long time. It's total peace, I don't even think about how fucked up shit is and I don't even have to worry. Everyone is just completely calm and happy and nothing's fucked up, we're all just being mellow. It's great. Who couldn't love that?
and the rest of you rock my socks too, but you didn't come to my head. I'm half asleep still. Don't be offended. x0x0
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[11 Aug 2003|01:37am] |
Poor old Johnny Ray
Sounded sad upon the radio
He moved a million hearts in mono
Our mothers cried and sang along and who'd blame them
Now you're grown, so grown, now I must say more than ever
Go toora loora toora loo rye aye
And we can sing just like our fathers
Come on Eileen, well I swear .:what he means:.
At this moment, you mean everything
With you in that dress my thoughts I confess
Verge on dirty
Ah come on Eileen
These people round here wear beaten down eyes
Sunk in smoke dried faces
They're so resigned to what their fate is
But not us, no not us
We are far too young and clever
Eileen I'll sing this tune forever
Come on Eileen well I swear .:what he means:.
Ah come on, let's take off everything
That pretty red dress Eileen ((tell him Yes))
Ah come on Eileen
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[07 Aug 2003|05:31pm] |
::10 bands youve seen live::
01. Crucial Unit
02. Damage Deposit
03. Cypress Hill
04. 9 shocks Terror
05. The Stitches
06. Legbone
07. Rash
08. Trauma
09. Knuckle buster
10. No time left
::09 Things You're Looking Forward To::
01. my license getting unsuspended
02. Brent's License getting unsuspended
03. getting my nova
04. Pay day
05. Getting a tattoo
06. Seeing Brent
07. Saturday
08. graduating
09. getting the fuck out of troy ohio
::08 Things You Wear Daily::
01. bra
02. panties
03. lip ring
04. nose stud
05. industrial barbell
06. earrings
07. sid vicious or cherry necklace
08. black eyeliner
::07 Things That Annoy You::
01. racism
02. homophobia
03. lack of vegan friendly food
04. sXe
05. stealing
06. liars
07. apathy
::06 Things You Touch Every Day::
01. keyboard
02. cigarette
03. lip ring
04. lighter
05. my hair
06. a car door
::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
01. american history x
02. donnie darko
03. boys don't cry
04. the crow
05. american beauty
::04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With::
01. brent
02. rafael
03. mateja
04. family in cali.
::03 Girls//Boys You have Kissed::
brent
rafael
andy
chris lott
rocky
zack
maurice
jordan
benny
chris applegate
brian long
zane
twiggy
shane
eddy
eric
paul
julian
lonnie
brian
paul
tom
jeffery
yeah, I'm done trying to remember, I left some people out though.
::02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment::
01. better than ezra-at the stars
02. Rotten Strawberries- Factory 81
::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
01. I just don't want to think about it
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There she goes with the pieces from my heart
There she goes and now my teardrops start
And here I go once again
Through these lonely heartaches and pain
That`s all remain all remain
Now I know love is a guessin` game
She goes with the pieces from my heart
There she goes and now my teardrops start
Who`s gonna put back the pieces to my broken heart
Once again once again now I know this could be the end
And she gone with the pieces of my heart
There she goes and now my teardrops start
And here I go once again
Through these lonely heartaches and pains
That`s all remain
Now I know this could be the end
She goes with the pieces from my heart
There she goes and now my teardrops start
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[29 Jul 2003|10:54pm] |
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Lucky 13 died. I brought him home and he started having tremors b/c of his head trauma and I called and Dr. Young said to bring him back and I said well I have to see who I can borrow money from so it might be awhile and She said It's not about the money, hell we'll figure something about, we have to save this cat. The vet said hell to me. It was odd. Anyway so I wake up this morning and call, and he went into a coma and died. It was the saddest thing I had ever heard. I was so sure he was going to live now, and he just died. Just thinking about that poor little cat makes me cry. And it makes me furious to know that the fucking cat never would have had to go through all that pain, if some fucking asshole would have just spayed or neutered their pet. I hope everyone thinks about that when they get an animal and want to be a little bitch and not pay a little extra money to get it fixed.
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[27 Jul 2003|07:50pm] |
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SO I heard from the vet today, and Lucky 13 is going to live. I am going to pick him up tomorrow at 2pm. I will post lots of pics of him when he is completely healthy. I am so happy. I really didn't think he was going to make it. He was barely breathing and his breathing was all raspy and his nose bled when he breathed and he could barely move and his eyes were all fucked up and barely open and he kept puking and then just laying in his vomit and he was so fucking skinny, but he's going to be okay. Well I have to take him to get tested for feline leukemia on friday since I couldn't afford it now, soo I hope he doesn't have that. I'm keeping my fingers crossed again. And I can't get him neutered until he's healthy they said. Plus I gotta get him his normal kitty shots soon. He is going to be so spoiled.
my friend told me this and it made me happy:
inhaLed: honestly though you really are beautiful so never think anything different cause it wont change and your intelligence is even more attractive than your angelic elegance that you portray cause you are fuckin hot as hell but its badass your actually smart as well i mean god damn thats a fucking incredible combination and i speak the truth so dont let the world fool you cause your fuckin incredible and im good at judging these things believe me ive seen just about everything
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[27 Jul 2003|12:28am] |
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I did a lot of thinking. And I realized that I am a very lucky person. I don't care how many people walk all over me anymore. It's not the people who treat me like shit that matter. It's the fact that I am lucky enough to have one of the best friends anyone could ask for. and it's the fact that I have other people who give a shit about me too.
new pic
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[26 Jul 2003|01:44pm] |
So, I'm just updating b/c last nite was so crazy. I went to work and stuff and then came home and Jess was babysitting so we decided to 'sneak out' at like 2am. It wasn't really sneaking out though b/c i told my mom and Jess's mom was gone. Anyway we went over to Ronnie's house to try to get a ride to lafayette today, but everyone was sleeping and we didn't want to get yelled out so we poked everyone and then left. Then we decided to walk to the waffle house. And so we got to the waffle house and we were just kickin it there and then this creepy guy sitting behind us kept harrassing me and going isn't it past your curfew and just being a fucking child molesting freak, but he left..and then he calls the fucking waffle house up and asks for the girl with blue hair and fucking kept harrassing me on the phone. so I didn't want to walk home for awhile so we ended up staying until like 4:45am.. then we decided to be brave and walk home..
SO.. we're walkin down the street and there's this animal in the grass. I thought it was a skunk Jess thought it was a groundhog. So I get real close to it and it was this little sick kitten. It could barely breathe. So me and Jess looked at eachother for like 45 seconds and Jess yells PETA PATROLLLLLLLL and I took off my sweatshirt and wrapped the kitten up and took him home. So I got it home and I realized it was a lot sicker than I thought and it needed to go to the vet, I of course am broke until payday (friday) so I call up Rafael and he said he would loan me $75..So I, after drinking like a whole pitcher of coffee at the waffle house, run around my house like a crazed chainsmoker waiting until 11am when he could get the money. At 11 courtney took me to get the money and I took the kitty to the vet. Jess and I named him Lucky 13. So he's at the vet over nite and they're going to see what they can do..They dunno if he'll make it though he was really sick. I'm keeping my fingers crossed though. Then I came home and sat my mom down and told her the story and told her that I'm not taking this cat to the pound and I'm keeping it and she said okay. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed and hoping Lucky 13 will make it.
Moral of the Story:
SPAY AND NEUTER YOUR PETS
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| See you crazy kids later. |
[20 Jul 2003|11:19pm] |
Due to a recent chain of events I have grown weary of people's inconsideration towards me and my emotions. I have grown incredibly tired of doing favors and being considerate towards others only to have them turn around and treat me like shit and not give jack shit back. Therefore I'm going to stay offline for awhile and I'm going to stay away from people for awhile besides work..which is mandatory. I will probably be online to check my email and what not so you can email me if it's important and you have yet to step all over me and take advantage of my kindness. I will also probably answer my cellphone if you have yet to piss me off.
soo.. goodbye for now..
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[19 Jul 2003|02:23am] |
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I worked from 6pm until 1 pm tonite. and then smoked..and so I'm pretty high
all the hamster babies are fine
Brandon wants me or something. All the guys want me when I'm not single. wtf?
all held their breath
cover your eyes
hide your face
stand back
the hatred is conquering
with a foundation of apathy
and walls built with insecurity
structural brainwashing
all joined hands
the filth trickeled into the sewer grates
the silence will kill
on the dark streets
and the dead end alleys
the silence will kill
the whores on the corner
and the junkies in the gutter
your children are losing their hope
as they walk the streets with their heads down
and their swollen eyes and busted lips
distant voices dissipate
human hearts hallucinate
real emotions raped
all all drowning in the silence
open your eyes
show your face
step forward
they all screamed
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[18 Jul 2003|04:58pm] |
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okay first and most important, Miss Havoc had babies. I will post many pics when they are old enough to be messed with. and Richard Hell apparently is a she and is pregnant too. Captain Chaos is a very busy little hamster.
I almost lost my job last nite. Well the night before that we went up to go to work and the janitors closet was locked so we couldn't clean anything. We told my boss and she went and called and apparently it was locked on purpose. I guess everyone was getting sick of our fucking around and we weren't cleaning good enough..We've been half assing it for a long time now. Well anyway our boss had to meet up with the president of the bank and they almost fired her, so she was going to have to lay us all off. Well they didn't fire her, but she still fired andy and the rest of us got to keep our job, but we have to do really good from now on sooo we went in last nite and were there from 10pm until about 2:45.. I was so tired..
Richard Hell is having her babies right now
Jess, Courtney, Ronnie, Amber, Brandon and I are all going to Kings Island on Monday. I'm takin lots of pics, I'll post em when I get back.
I have to go to work in an hour, so I'll catch you crazy kids later.
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| ..Screamin out the window at the stars, Please don't drive me home |
[16 Jul 2003|10:50pm] |
apparently no one wants to play my answer the questions game *puppy dog face*
So..Tomorrow is my last day of summer school! wooooooooooooooooo
I'm going to see the lower class brats, my favorite band ever, b u t it's in fucking middletown and I'm going to have to see all of those fucks again..it's a big dilemma.
Chris and I stopped fighting, he told me he loves me and he'll be looking for me when he gets back.
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| 1...2...3.....a n s w e r the questions!!!!!! |
[13 Jul 2003|11:02pm] |
Everyone answer this!!
1. when and how did we meet:
2. have you ever seen me with my shirt off:
3. have you ever seen me cry:
4. describe me in four adjectives:
5. if we could spend a day together what would we do:
6. have we ever gotten in a fight:
7. if you could give me a present what would it be:
8. would you hug me:
9. what do you really think of me:
10. have we ever kissed:
11. has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me, but were scared to:
12. wanna makeout:
13. name one thing you dont like about me:
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